It has become more and more important to me the older I get to share my emotional experience with others, because I have come to believe that I am not unique. I think that if I take a chance and share my dark side, I can maybe help others or I can maybe even make new connections.
I have always shared a lot, but not publicly. It was always only with a trusted friend or two, and there was so much I wouldn’t share also because I was ashamed.
The more people I speak with or get to know, the more I realize that my emotional experience is in many ways similar to others. I also know that when I was at the lowest points in my life, it always helped to hear from others who either could understand or who had had similar experiences or feelings as I was having.
There is still so much I haven’t shared.
I wrote my #metoo list, but it is on an anonymous site…and although I would tell myself not to feel ashamed about certain things, I still do. If these things were someone else’s experience, I would tell them to let it go, to be at peace, to not feel ashamed, that they weren’t at fault, etc. etc.
But I am becoming more and more open, and I hope that by doing so I not only help others, but that I too can keep growing and stay in a positive place…